As Above So Below…

The first time I sat in ceremony and took Ayahuasca, my wish was that it would offer lasting benefits. I hoped for visions that would transform my entire reality. Or a good part of it.

Before the ceremony, I asked a lot of questions. After five years of research, I felt ready. Called even.

One person mentioned that at some point in that evenings’ journey, there may be a lull, opening the opportunity to work with the medicine. She said sometimes in those moments she’s asked “How may I be of service?”

In my first circle, indeed there was a pause, and in that moment, I was inspired to ask the question too: How may I serve?

Immediately, a beautiful elder woman who I had treated in my acupuncture practice was present. I’d treated this Beautiful Woman in the last months of her life. I felt a connection with her and after she concluded her treatments, I felt this pull to check in with her, but life and fear of not knowing what to say and fear of vulnerability kept me from it. Within a few months, I heard she had passed.

When Beautiful Woman appeared, I was happy to see and connect with her. She urgently asked for help. She wanted me to convey some messages to her daughter, Indira.

“Tell Indira she must go to India and visit her aunties. Bring my ashes and put them in the river. Tell her I love her darling boyfriend. Her aunties need to meet him, so bring him to India too.”

Beautiful Woman was happy for her daughter’s happiness in love. These messages, indeed, I could relay.

She also asked me to please give some of the breast milk to her son. She wanted him to drink this milk.

Background: That weekend with the ayahuasca medicine, there was a lactating mother. The young mother didn’t want to feed her child the “ayahuasca breast milk” so she was pumping and dumping, or more accurately, she was pumping and the milk was up for grabs.

I put some in my tea as did others that weekend. It would be available to share with Beautiful Woman’s son and I agreed to get some to him.

After Beautiful Woman left, I realized that I’d agreed to something completely bizarre. I did not know her son; a grown man. Egads. How would I present this to him? How on earth would I fulfill this mission?

I was peripherally familiar with her son, a medical doctor, Ishan, from yoga class. Ishan had an extremely dense energy. He was accomplished, a medical doctor after all; soft spoken but such heaviness. Apparently he was working through hard, hard things.

Ishan’s mother had told me that she helped him. He had lived with her through medical school, residency, and board exams. Now he was set up in a nice apartment and had accepted a position at the local hospital. It was time for him to make his way in the world.

I reached out to Indira and I let her know I'd recently taken the holy medicine and through it received messages from her mother. I relayed the requests— that she bring her mother’s ashes to India and release into the river. Your mother loves your boyfriend so bring him to meet your aunties. Indira was receptive; she wept as I told her.

Then I asked for her help with the milk. She immediately devised the plan: "I'll have him for chai. I'll put the milk in the tea."

It was a significant experience and I was happy to be a part of. Now my mission was complete.

Several years later, through a friend of a friend, I happened to see a post on social media: a photo of Ishan. He'd undergone a metamorphosis. Transformed. Entirely. He was smiling radiantly, ear to ear, on a kayak in a beautiful paradise, with a gorgeous woman looking at him admiringly.

In another year or two, in a subsequent medicine circle, the idea presented itself - how many of us might benefit from “ayahuasca breast milk”? I wondered particularly about those who were really suffering: people living on the streets, the addicted, the disenfranchised. And, how would one acquire more ayahuasca milk? Or something like it?

And it came to me— elixirs, like the gem elixirs I'd learned to make. Share with anyone who may benefit.

Did Ishan drink the milk? I don't know for sure. What was his process - here to there?

Early feedback is that the Elixirs are beneficial. They support us through life’s challenges and opportunities.